Missing pieces

I sometimes feel like talking to someone
About what I feel
About what sort of shits I'm going through
About how happy I am about something
About how frustated I am of sth
And about all my excitements

Its not like I don't have people to talk to.
It is just me.

When I rethink of doing the above,
I'll stop myself from going to people,
I'll stop myself from trying to share with people
I'll stop myself from letting people know what I feel inside
I'll try so hard keeping my guards in

I am afraid

I don't know why

SOS