'budak baru'

i hate that particular sentence.

everyone was like, "you are now a part of this school"

EFF IT UP MAHN

i knw that some of you guys are like "why are they bugging us here"

everytime my friend (my friends are among the bunch of new kids) were like saying they are like this and that

i was like "positive deeba positive, be an optimist,maybe you havent really know them yet"

tapi cam dah sahsah nampak ade yg cam kita cakap baikbaik,senyum

tapi bila kita tak pandang, kawan kita nampak dia buat muka cynical,

kau rasa apa weh?

i know that not all of them are like that

i do make friends with some of them,

so kenapa ada yang boleh buat kawan ada yang tak?

we were like, 13 of us,

and they are 146

they are blaming us for not bonding with them

are we suppose to know them all, 146 of them?

do we have to greet them all if they passed by us?

and we dont even recognise all of their faces,we thought theyre form2s,form3s,or form5s sometimes

is it our ONLY fault if we didnt have such a good relationship with ALL of them

i admit its hard for me to communicate with you guys and it is because i am badd in my communicating skill

i admitted my mistake

wont you admit too?

NO OFFENSE people if you yourself not one of them.

again

NO OFFENSE

dah.

pastu pulak

aku kan join pengakap

pastu kena kawad

sucks mahn!

aku dah la tak suka kawadkawad ni

seriously akan tarik diri

dont you guys knw how much i envy my friend

wahyu & aten; the teacher who taught us silat , mengajar dekat sekolah baru diorang

tapi aku di sekolah aku macam terbatas untuk buat apaapa

i dont do sports anymore

i dont do silat anymore

i dont take part in sports day anymore

i am not interested in any extracurricular activities anymore,

in fact i hate and darn lazy to join it

dah tu kan

ada a gang of budak lelaki ni kan

suka bahanbahan aku.

takat nak bahan tu aku boleh terima,

macam dah biasa kena

tapi yang saaket hati gilaa,

bila kau tak dapat lawan balik

nak lawan pun cam 1 vs. 7 orang

benci siaal

rasa nak sepak je

takpe

diorang tak kenal aku lagi

masa hari sukan pulak

when they were singing, i sang along

when they were dancing, i danced along

when they were cheering, i cheered along,

i did all of it along but alone. got me?

and for friends,

i have syaza , diana, hidayah, afiqah , and err azean around me

theyre all the 'budak baru' too

and last week the second intakers was in

theyre 2boys and a girl

we were very excited at that time, OBVIOUSLY excited

terlebihlebih excited compared to other form4s

lepas je jumpa the girl,

we told her this and that,

take her for a walk around the school that evening

oh! and she is also hidayah,

so we have another hidayah,

she ask us to call her DAB, err. thats a combined name(her name+her father's name)

jadi kitorang dah macam gang 'budak baru' lah

pegi makan sesama and buat apa samasama

and kitorang bukan sajasaja tarik Dab, paksa dia dengan kitorang,

kitorang just taknak dia rasa apa yang kitorang rasa, terkapai-kapai takde arah.

tapi takkan kitaorang kawan dengan kitakita je kan?

we're cool to make friends dengan yang lain kalau korang ok.

boleh kan?

kata satu semashur kan?

oh! forgot to mentioned, i do make friends with the semashurians,

i mean the penduduk asal, bukan pendatang cam aku.

cool je, okay je, baik je

so tak semua seperti yang aku mentioned on the very top of this post

tolong paham (;

obviously still trying.

-deeba